Watch American History X over and over and over. This movie is amazing! It’s exactly what I was talking about on nov. 10: hate is baggage… you just can’t go on being pissed off at everything all your life… I don’t know exactly how to express this and I guess I am too far from understanding it well to say it well, but I wish I could learn about people better by just sitting in the sun with them, face to face, and just look at them and smile… and say nothing… just look and feel and learn. I wish I loved better.