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- unable to use my computer for a week… power adapter overheated and melted down… am waiting for a new (free!) one…
- intensive work on grant proposal, am aiming for $12,000 so far… and sending it tomorrow night and then waiting until october… aghhhh…
- director of this grant committee is an old teacher of me… also director of the school where i’would have liked to do the research… but hey, at least the proposal is 13 pages (single spaced!), that can only bring me good luck…
- cooking vegetarian, buying tons of vegetables and eating them, cleaning my kitchen every afternoon and messing it all up that same evening…
- watching movies after movies to rest my brain from the grant proposal hyper-activity… got six feet under disc 2, thirteen conversations about one thing, sidewalks of new york…
- have re-written half of every single page of the nnest caucus website for netscape usability, am starting to understand dreamweaver and css…
- still not so hot here and i’m loving it! raining and thunderstorming often… yeah, even tornadoing a bit sometimes…
- have heard that i’d go visit ireland for a couple of weeks this summer, sounds nice, always wanted to go there in spite of the british…
- will have to have my fake nails done again on monday… damn… nice looking but expensive stuff… have finally gotten used to typing with my claws…
- starting school again on monday, yuck, will it EVER END???

Are you bored? I’m bored too. I am even thinking of signing back onto that ldsso website again. I changed my geographic location on it to Texas and I have gotten a couple of messages from people down there. Cool, huh? I also went out a few times in the past week or so with a guy who is pretty odd. Well, actually, I think that any guy who doesn’t know me would say, « She went out with Him? More than once?!? She must be scary! » Scary I am not. Bored, I am. Crazy I am not (So not going out with him again). Oh, I should tell you I lied. I actually DID sign back up on that website already! (a few minutes ago). See what happens to me when you aren’t around to keep me sane? Oh, speaking of wierdoes, I also ran into a certain person I went out with in the past (You can guess who it is–I don’t want to broadcast it) and despite all the mean things I had been planning to say to him, I said something cordial. (I’m improving, aren’t I?). I didnt’ say anything downright friendly or mean, but I was polite (Which is more than I can say for HIM!! Last time I saw him he walked past like he had no idea who I was. Men are jerks!) Good riddance! (But at least I didn’t actually SAY « good riddance » to him).

Hi there!
So, a new teacher asked me for an electronic copy of a reading log form I gave him. Why? Because he wanted to add something to it. He wanted to add… (hmm, what could it be?)…. a section for SELF-REFLECTION!! Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah!

so i read this article about this girl who got fired after her boss realized she was writing tons of stupid things about her job on her blog… not something i’d do, hehe… my dear students! i have been making bad webpages since october and i am still fighting with codes and stupid dreamweaver to understand how it works, and man, i do NOT understand it well yet, it’s pathetic!!! i’d like to do something pretty nice… but i guess i’ll have to re-read the 20 books that i bought and haven’t really all read yet… this is beyond frustrasting. however… since i have nothing else to do, why not do that now!? oh yeah, i’m trying to write an article to get someday somehow published somewhere… but since i don’t have much experience doing that, i really don’t know what i’m doing! …more frustration! …nothing like having a witness and a bodyguard following me around all day though, so i’ll survive!

other than that, the weather’s still pretty bad, but not too hot, thank goodness! i have fake and really long nails and love it!! it’s cool, i get 3-4 compliments every day, i am getting used to typing with it, and… they don’t break! i’ve had them for 2 weeks now, and it’s still really nice! yeah, i’m getting closer and closer to becoming a REAL american! scary! someone do something and fast!

i’m waiting for catherine… and waiting… has she arrived in chicago yet? is she coming here tonight? tomorrow? what time? so i go around with my cell phone, which is highly unusual for me, and hope that she won’t call from downstairs when i’ve just finally decided to stop waiting and do something else… like go to the movies with Nancy, for example… ah la famille!

haven’t heard anything from the dean of students office about that special someone… nor about me, which is rather good, no news is good news, right? i wake up every morning and tell myself « remember to forget so and so today »… and it seems to work, except that i am still wondering how i could have let this mess happen. i have NEVER lost a friend, not even become mad with ex-boyfriends, so … what went wrong? i guess there’s a first time for everything. a my students say: there’s a time and a place for everything: college!

ah yes, the article about the blogs that i read today also said that people wrote blogs because they liked the attention! they forgot to say that people who write blogs also like smaller phone bills! if i had to call to switzerland, france, italy, the us, and goodness knows where else every time i had something to tell to people i love, that’d do quite something to my phone bill. idiots! i don’t want the attention: I HAVE IT… well… from at least 5 people in this world! which is quite an achievement!

ok, i stop here. as you can see, boredom has certainly not improved my originality nor my writing style! darn! and since i find myself with a yet again empty brain, i feel that i now must go back to fighting with CSS and XHTML and other similarly exciting idiotic accronyms. yay!

…bored…

Oh, and as for the stress of « going through this with a friend » the good news is that most people are not severely broken so the majority of people never have to go through this at all. The only good thing is the low probability of someone/something like this invading your life again.

So, what am I going to do on July 4th without you? Remember the picnic and the fireworks–and the ants? (oops, okay, forget the ants!) I hope you are having fun and getting the chance to relax!

so, here’s the latest: we went to the dean of students! ouch! won’t let people bother me anymore! enough is enough! the good thing is, today is the last day, and… well… someone doesn’t have the permission to come to my class anymore! so I’m free to teach IN PEACE! and i have the dean’s permission to call the police if this someone talks/sees/writes to me! i feel like i’m going through a divorce! how sad!!! i’m so sad that this whole thing happened!!!! it’s like it destroyed all my childhood’s illusions about friendship and the goodness of people. if i can go through that with a friend, i can’t even start to imagine what it would be with a husband! agh, i’ll never get married!!! nothing new there, but it just confirms and reafirms my beliefs in that area!
… and i’m done grading 640 pages of stuff written by my students! YEAH!!!!!!!

Ouch! (about the knee). One more day. One more day. You can do it!