so this is my current perspective on life: i love the weather! my left hip hurts a lot, almost as much as after the surgery… my right leg is going bad again, so i’m taking antibiotics like a mad man and praying that last december little drama doesn’t repeat itself… all this must be because i don’t eat much. but hey, now i fit in my pants, which is nice, and i don’t feel pregnant all the time. talking about that, i had the weirdest dream 2 nights ago: i was at a picnic with my family and Christian, that kid i was in love with when I was in high school… he’s a surgeon now, in switzerland… so in my dream my mom was trying to set me up with him and we were having this picnic together… and i was looking at the guy, and he was soooo good looking, and successful and all… i kept thinking that he’d never think i’d be good enough for him! i felt so… inadequate… Around us there were a lot of other people, it was kind of a park or something, and the weather was beautiful… suddenly we saw this little girl who was crying… and asked her what was going on and she said she had been abandonned by her grandpa and her family who didn’t want her anymore. i thought “great, i’ve never wanted my own kids but i’d love to adopt this little girl, that’ll be perfect!” but my mom got angry at the girl’s family and ran around the park until the found the grandpa leaving in his car, and she gave him back the little girl… and i was so sad! yeah yeah, i know i’m weird.

other news: i’m writing a 10 page paper for curriculum design and it’s no fun, i already wrote 6 pages today… will finish tomorrow hopefully. my students seem happy… well… not too unhappy at least, which is good… except for one person who, on the evaluation, under the question “what has been the most useful to you in this class?” wrote “nothing” and then under the question “what has been the least useful?” wrote “N/A.” … mmm… good thing i’m not taking ANYTHING personally anymore :) We haven’t received our student evaluations from last semester still, and it’s midterm now… so oh well… i don’t care much, i’ll keep doing what i’m doing, except for the blog entries, which seem to be a main concern… we’ll see… i guess i’m not really good at encouraging people to be creative and free and to enjoy writing on this thing like other people, and it’s been kind of a flop, but hey, you’ve got to try things sometimes! so this will change. the rest, “too much homework,” will definitely not change, sorry :)

Nils passed his exam almost brilliantly, Anais had a good time in the Virgin Islands (who wouldn’t?), Jeanne has her man back from Arizona, the weather is less cold, spring break is in one week, i worry less about my problem students, i’m flying to Baltimore in 2 weeks, i have transfered my $3.000 loan from a 15% interest account to a 4% interest account, i ordered new checks, white russians are delicious, i finally sent her Christmas present to Judy, i’m registering for administration classes for summer and fall, i might have found a place to stay for free in Baltimore for TESOL (thanks Mireille:), and i’ve found someone to help me clean my house every week… things are good! life is good.